This week has been rough. It was the first week in months that I wasn't working on a super big project with a deadline quickly approaching. The kids were fighting with each other and with us about everything. It was hot and sticky. Paige is on summer vacation and is already bored. I said good bye to baby L and to Miss A (a 2 year old I was babysitting) until next school year, and although I'm going to like having time just with my family, I love those little girls and will miss them terribly. Some relationships I have are strained, and I'm sure most of it is me being self-centered. My house is a disaster; the laundry is backed up, the kitchen counters are MIA, and with potty training Ryan, the house reeks...thankfully I seem to be the only one who can smell it, but that doesn't make breathing any easier for myself.
So with it being Friday night, I'm completely drained. After dinner I was sitting on the couch, frustrated with the world and having a pity party.
That's when my sweet little Ryan comes up to me, looks up at me with those baby blue eyes, and takes my hand.
"Dance wif me? Dance?"
I get up off the couch, and we "dance"; for a 2 year old, that just means walking around in a circle, holding hands, and moving your head to the music...but it was the sweetest thing that I've seen in awhile. When we're done, he gives me a big kiss and a hug, says "Luff you, Mommy", then runs off to play.
It made me realize that although life is hard and stressful, it's so easy to get caught up in it all that I miss a lot of the little things. I could have easily sat and grumbled some more and missed out on dancing with my little boy. Life is passing by too fast, and some day Ryan's not going to want to dance with me, much less hug or kiss me...or even acknowledge my existence. I need to start making my family and the little things more of a priority; I don't know how long I'll have them (forever, please, God!), and I need to take advantage of every opportunity and moment I can get.
How do you balance life and finding time to enjoy those little things? What little things have you experienced this week?